six months later
It's been a while. I wish I had better excuses for not posting other than I was living my life instead of living inside my head. The last half of the year was pretty eventful, or at least it is in my head.
i started drawing again
I dusted off my Wacom tablet and began making art again. Regularly, with renewed vigor and a desire to improve. What caused this sudden shift?
i became part of a fandom, again
I may have written about the horrors of being part of a fandom before, but if there's anything constant in my life, it's my inability to change. You know what they say, evil doesn't die, it reinvents itself. And that evil is the unstoppable force of my hyperfixation on a piece of media.
i became sad, again
I mean it doesn't take a doctor to know you're in a slump. I was looking and feeling like trash these past few months. I let myself go by staying up all night and sleeping at 5 am everyday for no reason, having godawful eating habits, not doing my skincare regimen, being absolutely useless and terrible at my job, the like. I was still taking my daily showers, brushing my teeth, and walking my dogs everyday so there's that at least.
i'm still broke
So broke I had to downgrade my bearblog account. And as if life hasn't kicked me in the ground enough, my phone and the camera I use for work died on me and I had to find a replacement. I begrudgingly bought a used camera and accidentally dropped it in one of my walks not even a month later, rendering it unusable. No warranty because I bought it secondhand on Facebook. Congratulations, you played yourself.
i went to japan
How does a broke person travel? I still wonder about that. I had very little savings at that point, but I didn't want to ghost my friends. See, we planned this trip when I was pretty comfortable financially. Then this fuckass year happened. And so I went to Japan and had the most traumatizing travel experience I've ever had in my entire life. It deserves another post, and god help me relive those memories. Brace yourselves for impact, it's going to be a wild ride.
Thanks for hanging on to this blog post slash comedy of errors. There's more to come!
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